22nd Chapter of the Book

Well, well...after all that had happened, its the same story pa rin, but honestly, this chapter seems to be more silent. very silent indeed. Though I dont find any serenity on it. Siguro nga, dahil sa walang tumawag, pero parang ok lang. After all, I'm the reason bakit naging ganito ka boring ang buhay ko. (Sigh)... Is there a chance na mabalik yung dating panahon, I feel the guilt that I should have appreciate it more instead of creating hatred, criticism and negativism. But I want them to reach out, Gusto ko palagi silang magreach out, I know that its impossible but I just cant help it. Buti pa ang ibang tao na di related sa yo, naalala nila, buti pa yung relatives ko, buti pa yung step dad ko, pero yung kaisa-isa kung pamilya, ewan ko na lang... but anyway why should I spent my time thinking of unecessary things na I'm on my own now... Stupid kung iisipin but I have to accept that things even a blood relative, your mom that is, has its own ending and limitations. Too bad, I lost mine, maybe that is the consequence of practicing my prerogative, freedom to choose ones happiness and likes, It sounds selfish yet the contemporary reality agrees with it.