22nd Chapter of the Book

Well, well...after all that had happened, its the same story pa rin, but honestly, this chapter seems to be more silent. very silent indeed. Though I dont find any serenity on it. Siguro nga, dahil sa walang tumawag, pero parang ok lang. After all, I'm the reason bakit naging ganito ka boring ang buhay ko. (Sigh)... Is there a chance na mabalik yung dating panahon, I feel the guilt that I should have appreciate it more instead of creating hatred, criticism and negativism. But I want them to reach out, Gusto ko palagi silang magreach out, I know that its impossible but I just cant help it. Buti pa ang ibang tao na di related sa yo, naalala nila, buti pa yung relatives ko, buti pa yung step dad ko, pero yung kaisa-isa kung pamilya, ewan ko na lang... but anyway why should I spent my time thinking of unecessary things na I'm on my own now... Stupid kung iisipin but I have to accept that things even a blood relative, your mom that is, has its own ending and limitations. Too bad, I lost mine, maybe that is the consequence of practicing my prerogative, freedom to choose ones happiness and likes, It sounds selfish yet the contemporary reality agrees with it.

Whew! para bang nabunutan ako ng tinik after I pass the PRC requirements for my cases. I never thought na makakapasa ako but still this is not the time to celebrate, I'm not sure kung matatanggap ba yun or I need to revised that freaking sheets of papers! Wow naman, after all this time, feeling ko I can relax a bit and breathe some fresh air (bongga!). Kaya for now, I have to make sure that I make some follow on my cases and hopefully di ko kailangang magrevised

And I say, its a different story...

Alam mo minsan talaga nakukuha ko pang magkamali na nakapost na ang sagot sa aking harapan, minsan kasi, I'm trying to find out na baka pwede pang ipilit, pwede pang ikasya pero ang hindi ko alam nagbulag-bulagan lang ako, kaya ang mga naging resulta ay either nasira, mas lumala kaya pero ewan, ginagawa ko na lang I laugh towards the things na nagiging sobrang bobo ako, iniisip ko kasi baka makalusot...ahehehe