Flashing up

its been so long that I haven't visited this site. well I suppose that nobody would even bother my site. It's but true. Well, why should i bother myself about that. I'm suppose to write a lot yet my timid and lazy personality just overwhelmed me for many times. I have gone to a lot of situation, I have a lot of things to say about it, yet, something in me just makes me feel exhausted, invincible and tired. I just can't help it....and now, I'm here, try to write a couple ,maybe a hundred of words just to put on something on this blog....but wait I guess i found another reason why I'm writing here....I'm not sure if i'm making a self expression or maybe another story to make. Anyway, its almost ten in the evening and many ideas a running to my head waiting and excited to be released, just like a wrath of the thunder, wickedly amazing yet can produce a lasting moment. I should spark my self to new things....I wonder if should i end here, maybe i should.

makes me sick

ahhh, U know what I have this boardmates who is a freshmen student. Actually, I thought he has nice and humble attitude but eventually he's true colors shown up. I don't know if he know that 65% of that population of the bordas dislikes and maybe hates his talkative and vague attitude. There was one time that we talk about a certain discount card of a lifestyle brand and then I just said few but factual comments and never having a thought that he would react in such temper...that surprises me....I said at back of my mind, "thats it, there is must be something that I do to not to tolerate such attitude" Now heres the story: He shown to us a discount card of a certain store then I ask him if have you ever used that since he has already had that card for 5 years, he said no and so I told him in factual but in funny manner" whats the point of having that if you haven't even used that for once" and suddenly he reacted in seemingly hot tempered tone "don't give damn about it....i don't like senseless joke". What the hell was that? Then i just respond"ok I wont comment bout that" few minutes later walk out in their room...Then a day later he approach me as if nothing happened that night, I don't wanted....for continuation

gipit

hay naku...ang hirap nga talaga ng buhay ngayon, estudyante pa lang dumadaan na ako sa di naman masyadong matinding kahirapan. Eh ano na lang kaya kung ngayong malapit na akong matapos sa aking pag-aaral...chakana! PARAng lahat na yata ng palusot nasabi ko na para makakuha ng pera mula sa workshop conduction, to topic presentation pati na rin yata pagtaas ng matrikula parang nasubukan ko na....tsk tsk tsk, tingin ko tuloy parang kasama ko na...pero nakokonsensya ba ako? hmmmm nung una ou! sobra, di dahil sa naawa ako sa mga magulang ko pero takot ako na malaman nila yung totoo, alam mo naman na iba yung feeling na parang wala na silang tiwala sa iyo...(oooows, may tiwala pala ang parents mo sayo). pero sa mga panahong dumadating, sa tingin ko para yatang humahasa na ako, pinag aralan ko kasi ang mga numero at mathimatics tulad ng ng percent, mga school fees at tsaka mga iba pang uri na bumubuo sa matrikula..(mayron kayang paaralang nagtuturo ng mga ganung bagay, sanan magadvertise naman sila), at di lang yan, humahasa na rin ako maging is abagado para sa sarili ko, syempre kailangan ko ng proteksyun kaya pinagaralan ko rin ang mga liguahing percent VAT at iba pa....sabagay ang buhay ngayun kailagan planado ang lahat, wag mag padalos-dalos mahirap na ang alam mo na....kaya nga tinatanong ko sa sarili ko...itutuloy ko pa ba...hmmm...sagot ko....ewan...Good luck na lang...